how do you deal with people that you love and hate at the same time?
damn

Jason needs to ask me to prom.
the end.

i think i'm loosing my mind
i don't know how to stop it

:/

besides mcr shows,
best 24 hours of my life.

its over.
everything is dead.
my heart, soul... everything

i don't care what happens to me
i just don't want him to be hurt or sad.
i hate the fact that i got him in trouble.
i can't stop shaking


my mom is horrible.
the only reason she cares is because she wants the perfect daughter.



please just let him be ok.

i passed my drivers test!!!
YAYAYA
i'll never be home again.
:]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

so i really do think my head is going to explode.
feels like there is someone knocking on my head with a hammer.
i had to stay at the SAT thing till 9 which is lame because an extra 30 minutes of math is horrible.
what would realllllllllllly make me happy is a text in the morning with "i hope you feel better" or "may your day be great" pretty much something to get me out of this gloom.


my head, heart and body hurt... badly

sooo tonight was the first night in a long time that i've had a lot of fun besides with Nacho

Kenzie and i went to the coffee grove to hang out with Wendy
Will ended up being there and his friend max showed up.
Will is a very nice boy who likes to flare his coat collar.
Kenzie and i spoke a little mayan for everyone.
The time passed very quickly and we all decided to go see Pan's Labyrinth which was a very good movie.
Creepy dude with eyes for hands will give me nightmares.

pretty much the only bad part of the night is getting hit on by guys in huge cars while your driving.
blah!



On another issue
i'm confused about things
close friends: you know what i'm talking about
its hard to hold on to someone that wants to leave.
but i want him to be happy, always.
i'll always be there for him, even if its as a friend.
somehow i'll get through this all.
to be honest i'm scared of asking him stuff
i'm scared he will get angry like before
besides i don't want to be nosy.
i just wish he would trust me.

my heart hurts

i've already drowned myself in tears

how did mary die?

a tire hit her in the face!

what was she doing near tires?

no, this tire hunted mary down.